fuks: !!
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rainbowbarnacle: stunt-muppet: he hide in own tentacles...
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nerdie-heaven: Okami: The Gods by zeldacw
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magzneto: “It’s about being at ease in one’s own skin.”
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judarw: “Is he half?”
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The Morning After I Killed Myself
The morning after I killed myself, I woke up.
I made myself breakfast in bed. I added salt and pepper to my eggs and used my toast for a cheese and bacon sandwich. I squeezed a grapefruit into a juice glass. I scraped the ashes from the frying pan and rinsed the butter off the counter. I washed the dishes and folded the towels.
The morning after I killed myself, I fell in love. Not with the boy down the street or the middle school principal. Not with the everyday jogger or the grocer who always left the avocados out of the bag. I fell in love with my mother and the way she sat on the floor of my room holding each rock from my collection in her palms until they grew dark with sweat. I fell in love with my father down at the river as he placed my note into a bottle and sent it into the current. With my brother who once believed in unicorns but who now sat in his desk at school trying desperately to believe I still existed.
The morning after I killed myself, I walked the dog. I watched the way her tail twitched when a bird flew by or how her pace quickened at the sight of a cat. I saw the empty space in her eyes when she reached a stick and turned around to greet me so we could play catch but saw nothing but sky in my place. I stood by as strangers stroked her muzzle and she wilted beneath their touch like she did once for mine.
The morning after I killed myself, I went back to the neighbors’ yard where I left my footprints in concrete as a two year old and examined how they were already fading. I picked a few daylilies and pulled a few weeds and watched the elderly woman through her window as she read the paper with the news of my death. I saw her husband spit tobacco into the kitchen sink and bring her her daily medication.
The morning after I killed myself, I watched the sun come up. Each orange tree opened like a hand and the kid down the street pointed out a single red cloud to his mother.
The morning after I killed myself, I went back to that body in the morgue and tried to talk some sense into her. I told her about the avocados and the stepping stones, the river and her parents. I told her about the sunsets and the dog and the beach.
The morning after I killed myself, I tried to unkill myself, but couldn’t finish what I started.
I needed this tonight
If you’re looking for a sign not to then this is it. My inbox is open if you think talking to a stranger will help.
This is devastating and precious. Wow.
If anyone needs this, here you go. Just remember that somebody, somewhere always cares about you.
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hannala: poyzn: Pockets of fluff. THE LEGO STORE HAS KITTENS
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diariesofamisfit: THIS IS THE BEST VINE EVER 😂😂😂😂
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jungkooks-mother: ernoji: ernoji: hey stop telling mixed people to “pick a side” if they dont...
hey stop telling mixed people to “pick a side” if they dont want to
alternatively if a mixed person chooses to identify as one of their races, don’t constantly point out to them “but you’re ____ too”. they know they’re mixed you don’t have to remind them about it
also stop dismissing one of their races just because they don’t “look” like they are from that race.
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2dorkdotnet: concept art for a possible new comic we’ll be...
concept art for a possible new comic we’ll be doing at some point!
inspired by our time playing MMOs(FFXIV) together
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2dorkdotnet: trashlord-chans
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bemusedlybespectacled: lipstick lesbian? no, i’m a burt’s bees bisexual
lipstick lesbian? no, i’m a burt’s bees bisexual
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brain: time to feel sad for no reason
brain: time to feel sad for no reason
me: why
brain: you gotta
me: why
brain: you gotta
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justduet: here’s chibi ekko and gnar (he looks the same as a...
here’s chibi ekko and gnar (he looks the same as a chibi and not as chibi rofl)
ty for voting in poll! since zed and gnar were really close for a looong time I’m trying to finish up zed too :3
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ibratze: UNFINISH WORKクマ X
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poke-a-doodle-doo: My version of Gentleman Gnar from League of...
My version of Gentleman Gnar from League of Legends because Gnar is just too cute.
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